Waiting

Been listening to a new song by David and Nicole Binion. Called “All Things” My favourate part of the song is

[I see it breaking, On the horizon,

The dark of night, Giving way to the dawn, The day is coming, And hope is rising, Your joy will be my strength, Your joy will be my song

You are working all things for my good, You are working all things for my good, When I cannot see it

God, I still believe it, You are working all things for my good, When I cannot see it, God, I still believe it, You are working all things for my good]

The longer I listen to it, the more I feel walls of brokenness, dissapointmet, failure or anything that exalts itself above the truth of God’s word break in my heart.

I use to hate waiting….. with passion lol. I use to ask God why are you making me wait for something you can do in a second. But I’m changing…. some days I still get frustrated lol. I’m starting to enjoy waiting on God. I see how He uses the times of waiting to purify the longings of our hearts, to cause an alignment to His will. I’m starting to enjoy how in the waiting He can build a character of patience that no amount of money can buy. I see how in my waiting I’ve become a person who can sympathize with others, who can be compassionate towards others. I see how in waiting He manages to build a steadfast faith that no amount of money can buy. I see how in waiting I become a kind of person who others can enjoy living with. I use to say hurtful ignorant statements lol

Now I know the pain of waiting. But the most wonderful thing of all is I see how He graciously captivates my heart such that even when I have not experienced that healing or that breakthrough somehow He finds a way to keep affirming in the deepest parts of my spirit and soul that I am loved by Him, that I am not forsaken by Him, that I never walk alone. I have seen how relentless His love is towards me. I then realize that’s all He ever wanted from me, for me to seek His face over things. For me to seek his ways not what His hand is able to do.

As painful as the wait is Lord, I am thankful Lord that You chose building my spirit and character over any groanings I uttered. It’s days like these when I am reminded yet again that you are a GOOD GOOD FATHER

Happy, Friday friends